Sowing Season

Was losing all my friends. Was losing them drinking and to driving. Was losing all my friends but I got them back-

Junior year of high school (2006) I transferred from Colony High School to Corona Del Mar (Newport). It was during this transition that I experienced my first move. I had to abandon my past life and relationships and start anew in a frighteningly rich school. Albeit I made some great friends there,by the end of the year I moved again and back to my old home and high school of all places. To my surprise, some of my so-called friends didn't even notice I was gone. I grew up thinking that I would never leave this place because of all of the relationships I've acquired here but this one insignificant little moment (to anyone else) made me realize that life was so short and that I could be anywhere else. My time up to high school obviously didn't leave an imprint on anybody else's lives-why bother at all?

It was after Junior year of high school that I re-evaluated my life, my friends, and how I chose to spend my time. I stopped caring about my "status"-my "myspace"- my "image". I guess it was an appropriate time to develop senioritis. T'was also the year Brand New came out with their album: The Devil and God are Raging Inside Me.

This album changed my life- It made me accept myself. I was more content with the friends I could count on my fingers than the number of friends on my myspace. it was after I stoped caring about what people thought about me that I became happy- free to do anything without a care in the world about who might think me weird or who thought me strange. I AM weird. I think everybody is weird and that's ok, only some people try really hard to hide that fact and wear whatever swag they see on TV (and listen to whatever the radio spoon-feeds them) . At the end of it all, high school was some fleeting dream short lived, a machine I slept in whilst the saviors had wood and nails. But I've been awake for some time now and I look around to see people still dreaming.